Dilapidated

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discouraged

There are times, when we feel discouraged , damaged, drained, dejected... in simple terms... pure EMO!

Well, let me tell you about my emo weekend ! Every event that happened last week, accumulated and led me to become discouraged... I had become so pessimistic, I was so down... That I became immobilized. I had a fantastic day arranged with a loved one on Friday... but I had to cancel that... because I only wanted to sit at home... and drown in my own misfortune.

Often ... if Im sad or grumpy or cranky.. or whatever... I do one of two things: I either clean (excessively) or sleep (excessively).

The insomniac that I am... I decided to sleep... but couldn't... so I took a sleeping pill ! (two to be exact). I hallucinated for a while... and it took me three hours until i finally fell asleep (at 3am). I woke the next day at 3 pm ... I was so cranky... but I decided to make a change !! I decided that I could no longer let my emotions take over me. I had to change... not a tiny change... but a lifestyle change. So I decided to begin by changing my environment. I spent the entire Saturday and most of Sunday remodelling my entire room. Alone. (ps. My muscles are in a lot of pain.. moving a huge bed, a desk, a book case... all on my own...ouchies).

"Motivation is what gets you started. Habit is what keeps you going"

-Jim Ryun

I will update you about this change... I realize that I didn't specify why I was so down... maybe one day I will...

but for now, I want to leave you with a couple of encouraging quotes:

"When one door closes another door opens; but we so often look so long and so regretfully upon the closed door, that we do not see the ones which open for us."

- Alexander Graham Bell

“Change is the essence of life.Be willing to surrender what you are for what you could become.”

- Ghandhi

Nerdy Post

I am obsessed with reading random science related news ! I came across this today:

Gay men's bilateral brains better at remembering faces: York U study

According to this study, gay men, like females, use both sides of their brains and thus are able to recall familiar faces better than heterosexual men (who use their right hemisphere for recalling familiar faces).

Yay York University for actually publishing an article ! lol

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And now for pure randomness:

So researchers at some university (BGU) developed a geeky software program that is capable of detecting depression in bloggers !! Oh yes my dear friends... I can NOT wait... until this program "reads" my blog. lol

Professor Yair Neuman claims that the software has been designed to find "hidden content" that is indicative of depression.

Here is an example: the program picks up words that express emotions ( could even be colour) so in the article they used the colour black. The program then combines the word "black" with other terms that describes symptoms of depression (so first it picks up emotions, then symptoms) such as "sleep deprivation" or "loneliness" - This will then be recognized as a "depressive" text.

People get paid to do this... wow...