I started writing a couple of hours ago... it was titled "Confessions part deux". I basically had bullet points directed towards different people... I guess if I posted it, it would have been impulsive, and ... really random...
This will be a semi-confession- a very general one:
“Many people will walk in and out of your life, but only true friends will leave footprints in your heart”
- Eleanor Roosevelt
I agree with that quote... I have seen it take place in my own life. BUT... what if I don't want some people to walk out? Throughout the years, people have walked in and out of my life frequently. I won't lie, some of them I consciously opened the door for them and asked them to leave. Others... well, life just separated us and I don't particularly mind. But there is one last group which includes people that are no longer in my life (or are only partially in my life)- that truly effects me. There are people that I truly miss, and I feel their void in my life. Yes, most of those people have left a "footprint" in my heart... but I wish that they were still so close that I could sense and grasp their presence in my life. (selfish? perhaps).
I try to keep in touch with those that I love ... I may suck at expressing how much I care about them...
I don't want to blab on about how all these feelings arose... so I'll stop here.
“The friend who can be silent with us in a moment of despair or confusion, who can stay with us in an hour of grief and bereavement, who can tolerate not knowing... not healing, not curing... that is a friend who cares.”
- Henri Nouwen
For my friends who are reading this blog: a) thanks for reading... it really means a lot to me b) you mean more to me than you know.
Perhaps I should start expressing myself more... ?!
I appreciate you all being in my life. Some of you - I wish you were more involved. Some of you- I truly miss. I'll try to be more sappy when I see each and every one of you (not EVERYtime i see you... I can't spoil you that much).
I have one shout out: I can't seem to bring myself to say this to you in person. I know you barely ever read my blog ( I'm not too fond of you for that ). I want you to know, that I love you. You are my backbone. I'm sorry I made you feel like a lamp post (? what was it?). I'm not sure if this means I should refrain from dumping my baggage in front of you... but thats something we need to talk about in person. My point is: I appreciate all that you have done for me. Nothing that you've ever done... has gone by unnoticed. You are my sunshine.
I agree with that quote... I have seen it take place in my own life. BUT... what if I don't want some people to walk out? Throughout the years, people have walked in and out of my life frequently. I won't lie, some of them I consciously opened the door for them and asked them to leave. Others... well, life just separated us and I don't particularly mind. But there is one last group which includes people that are no longer in my life (or are only partially in my life)- that truly effects me. There are people that I truly miss, and I feel their void in my life. Yes, most of those people have left a "footprint" in my heart... but I wish that they were still so close that I could sense and grasp their presence in my life. (selfish? perhaps).
I try to keep in touch with those that I love ... I may suck at expressing how much I care about them...
I don't want to blab on about how all these feelings arose... so I'll stop here.
“The friend who can be silent with us in a moment of despair or confusion, who can stay with us in an hour of grief and bereavement, who can tolerate not knowing... not healing, not curing... that is a friend who cares.”
- Henri Nouwen
For my friends who are reading this blog: a) thanks for reading... it really means a lot to me b) you mean more to me than you know.
Perhaps I should start expressing myself more... ?!
I appreciate you all being in my life. Some of you - I wish you were more involved. Some of you- I truly miss. I'll try to be more sappy when I see each and every one of you (not EVERYtime i see you... I can't spoil you that much).
I have one shout out: I can't seem to bring myself to say this to you in person. I know you barely ever read my blog ( I'm not too fond of you for that ). I want you to know, that I love you. You are my backbone. I'm sorry I made you feel like a lamp post (? what was it?). I'm not sure if this means I should refrain from dumping my baggage in front of you... but thats something we need to talk about in person. My point is: I appreciate all that you have done for me. Nothing that you've ever done... has gone by unnoticed. You are my sunshine.
2 comments:
lol Storm-post* .... that's okay. That's what friends are there for ... for them to be storm posts !
I think its quite nice how you can recognize that people leave footprints in each other's life ... not many people are willing to admit to that !
Footprints get washed away with time.
Hahahahah I'm such an ass. :D
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